Toxic writing

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I spread negativity.
I am an expert.
It's pretty easy.
Negativity is contagious.
In my case,
people who read 
are more prone to it 
People want me to 
stop talking about pain.
They say I am toxic.
Yes I know
I am venomous.
It is contagious.
I am a writer.
There is nothing 
private or personal.
What I feel...
today or next year,
I have to write it.
I have no escape.
You might ask 
why can't you leave it 
for you, it's your pain.
Why are you posting it?
You don't know...
the urge to show people 
to see them read 
to see them connect with it 
to talk about it...
This is my life.
This is how I live.
You don't know.
But I know it well.

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